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17th April 2014

imageRemember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. 
Live it, feel it, cling to it. 
I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.

- Sylvia Plath 


( Watch from AÃRK Collective | Crochet top from H&M )
Photographed by Eugene Mark

8th April 2014

Freshman year.

So back in college, fresh out of the oven, there was this guy who stuck his finger into my mouth, caressed my teeth and molested my tongue. 


Twice.
True story.

But that’s okay. He’s blind.

imageAnd that, kids, was how I got tongue-raped.

It was really weird.

1st April 2014

Fetherlite.

A Thousand Years. 
How would you describe that song in one word?

My student is a father of four and he is currently learning to master this piano piece. I was demonstrating how to project a contrast between intensity and breathlessness, at the same time maintaining a gentle touch of the fingers and movement of the wrists.

And what better ways to express the idiom;

"As light as a… ?"

Feather. I wrote on top of his score sheet…
And then Light, next to it.

24th March 2014

Change.

People change over time, no one can help it.

We try to hold on to how we make each other feel,

But we forget names, and feelings.

We forget shared moments.

Struggling to reconnect we realize that one party feels one way,

and the other never will again. 


Shouts, hollers, prodding.

It’s all different now.

It almost is like it never happened.

They weren’t them,

You weren’t you.

Now you just sigh.

Deep, aching sighs.

And remember, tomorrow is a brighter day.


Package still intact, hard to pry open,

We have a new chance.

Just remember to be forgiving,

To yourself and others.

10th January 2014

It’s been a while.

Hi. How are you doing?

This period in my life I am still trying to figure out who I am and what I want. Surviving the “post break-up”; no texts, no calls, no emails - was one of the hardest things I had to go through last year. Not being able to care how he is doing, where he is or who he’s with, and with random people coming up to you, telling you he was with this woman or that woman. It got to a point where it took a lot of therapy, acceptance and rediscovering yourself.

It wasn’t easy but as time goes by, that’s when you know.

You start to let go and not look back.

22nd December 2013

If there’s one thing I’ve learned.

Never wait. 
Never wait for anyone.
Becaus you’ll only wind up getting yourself hurt. 

And that’s not worth it.

15th December 2013

Stay.

I don’t expect you to know how to love me
Because I don’t know how myself.
And when I go through tidal waves of emotions,
I know it pushes you away.

I don’t expect you to know how to fix me
Because I don’t know how myself.
And when I let my insecurities speak to me,
I know it pushes you away.

But all I am trying to say to you is;
I don’t need your loving.
I don’t need your fixing.


I just need you to stay.

5th December 2013

Take the time to be kind. Be beautiful.
( Watch from AÃRK Collective | Earrings from LuveLuxe )Photographed by Sarah Liane Photography

Take the time to be kind. Be beautiful.

( Watch from AÃRK Collective | Earrings from LuveLuxe )
Photographed by Sarah Liane Photography

17th November 2013

While my heart freezes.

My brain has no heart, and my heart has no brain. That’s why when I speak my mind, I appear heartless and when I do what’s in my heart I seem thoughtless.

12th November 2013

I am back. New and improved.
( Credit: Sarah Liane Photography | Watch from Daniel Wellington Classic Southampton Lady | Top and Skirt from Korea )

I am back. New and improved.

( Credit: Sarah Liane Photography | Watch from Daniel Wellington Classic Southampton Lady | Top and Skirt from Korea )

12th October 2013

Fixing myself.

I just need you to love me while I fix myself.

11th October 2013

The good times.

Erasing heartache.

Rewriting memories and letting go of what you can’t change.

Because you’re always allowed to be better.

Here’s to the good times.

15th September 2013

Letting go.

light-burning-low:

❁

There’s nothing I’ve struggled with more than letting go. Whether it be letting go of an old toy, letting go of a nasty fight with someone close, or letting go of an old relationship. The thing is, I allow myself to believe these things are the same and always will be. I lie to myself in order to try keep myself happy, when infact I’m doing the opposite. The key to letting go is accepting things are not as they were. Nor will they ever be.


Holding on. 

What you’re really holding on to, isn’t that person, or that old toy.. You’re holding onto the memory it that holds. And while memories will never change, everything else will. What you’re holding onto does not really exist anymore. You just believe it does. You make yourself believe it exists by holding onto what was. Not accepting what is. 


Let go of the memories. This does not mean try forget them. Or bury them. It means let them be free. Let them wander your mind. Let them be seen. Let them disappear. Let them be free. They will leave you, and it is then when you will let go completely. Memories will never leave you completely. But they will leave you from time to time. And that is when you will heal. 


By freeing your memories, you are freeing yourself.

16th May 2013

How do you know when it’s over?

Maybe when you feel more in love with your memories than with the person standing in front of you.

14th May 2013

The worse goodbyes.

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…are the ones never said.

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